Be Intentional.

I’ve been trying to think of a word that I want to focus on this year. I want to be more purposeful in all aspects of my life and the word INTENTIONAL kept coming to mind. It’s easy to just go through the motions and worry about things I have no control over.

I want my relationship with God to be intentional.

I want marriage to be intentional.

I want my friendships to be intentional.

I want my photography work to be intentional.

I want to be intentional about taking care of my physical and emotional health.

What’s a word that you want to focus on this year?

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Our Infertility Journey Part I.

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I’ve been wanting to share this blog post for a while now, but it’s a little scary for me to be so vulnerable. Infertility and miscarriage can feel so lonely at times, I wanted to start blogging about our journey because my hope is that our story can encourage others and let them know that they are not alone.

My husband Justin and I got married in the summer of 2012. I was fresh out of college and he was in his second year of graduate school. I remember our first year of marriage we were nervous about getting pregnant right away and didn’t feel as if we were ready. Little did I know what the next 5 years would hold for us. At the moment when we decided we wanted and were ready to have kids is when I became a mother in my heart. Months passed which turned into years and still no baby. I can’t quite describe the pain of every month grieving the loss of a child that you hope so deeply for. It has been about 5 years of hoping and waiting for us. There is a quote by David Platt that sums up what I feel. “There is a unique pain that comes from prepping a place in your heart for a child that never comes.”

My desire in blogging about our infertility is to ultimately bring glory to God and to share with you how this journey has brought Justin and I closer together and united us in our marriage. I want to share the hope and joy we have even in our time of waiting, but also talk about the grief and pain infertility and miscarriage brings.